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[Nov. 23rd, 2009|06:39 pm] |
... I feel like I've become more boring than usual. These past few days, I've barely spoken to anyone, even though I'm online just as often and plurk about just as much as usual. I guess I might have finally driven people away by being an annoying shit. I really hope this is just fatigue and paranoia and hunger talking nghhhh /)_(\
T H E T H A N K S G I V I N G M E M E
M Y T H R E A D |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2009|10:46 am] |
Soooo I didn't get anything I wanted to do done this weekend because World of Warcraft had to suck me back into its evil clutches of addictiveness. God damn. Well. At the very least, I want to get to 80. I don't intend on going back to raiding, like, ever. MM hunters are still getting the short end of the stick in everything though. :|
I wanted to draw some stuff and scan some other stuff (even though the quality would have been shit) and get Christmas cards, but yeah, I've been distracted... and every time I did sit down to try and draw something, I just couldn't get anything to come out. I've been stuck in a terrible rut since Eos closed down and I haven't been able to enjoy drawing anything. I get impatient really quickly and my wrist is in permanent pain. I hate thiiiis. I need to get over this thing fast or I'll be doomed - it's what I want to do for a living, after all, and I have nothing else going for me at all.
--And I really, really need to fix this sleeping schedule already. I hate waking up thirty minutes before having to leave and seeing that there's nothing to eat that doesn't require like 20 minutes of preparation.
Almost tempted to skip my first class but I won't. :|
... shit, five minutes. /runs |
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[Nov. 22nd, 2009|08:05 pm] |
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I wish I could enjoy drawing again. |
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[Nov. 21st, 2009|12:43 pm] |
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You know how sometimes people on your friendslist post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.
Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out. (:
( fuck html, k ) |
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[Nov. 20th, 2009|06:29 pm] |
I feel like I haven't spoken to anyone all day.
( Christmas wish list... )
Also, Christmas Card Post if you missed it.
I spent so much time trying to beat Unlimited Rachel on Nu's arcade mode that now I can't even remember how to play any other character AHHHHHHHH /)_(\ |
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[Nov. 19th, 2009|12:23 pm] |
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Am I a bad person for wishing that my father would go away forever? |
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[Nov. 18th, 2009|08:48 pm] |
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No wonder I suck at cheering people up - it's all in the genes. My family, especially my parents, are just as terrible, if not worse than me. The old man is by far the worst at this.
He came into my room, asking how I was feeling and I replied honestly, saying that I was feeling bad. Then he goes on to poking his nose into my business and making me feel even worse, to the point where I'm practically crying my eyes out of their sockets. He asks if I want help getting through this dump and I say yes... his idea of help? Telling me I should get a new wardrobe because my current clothes are too "normal." When I tell him that I'm sick of being alone, he goes on about how getting a boyfriend (or girlfriend, as he always adds even though he's incredibly homophobic) will automatically make everything better.
... Old man, when I say I don't want to be alone anymore, it does not mean I want a guy to bone me. It means I want friends that will stick by my side and not forget about me. (I know, there's you guys, but I'm talking about RL people here.) A relationship will NOT "make everything better." I hate men in that way, and women even moreso. Friends are all I want. This is also me being extremely bitter, as all my friends that get boyfriends/girlfriends seem to end up ditching me because I'm less fun/important/something or another.
And no, taking walks outside when it's getting dangerously close to zero degrees will not make me feel better at all.
Just... fuck. I wish my wrist wasn't hurting like a motherfucker and that I was actually good at fighting games so that I could go vent my anger and frustration on a 2D character or something. |
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[Nov. 18th, 2009|11:23 am] |
1. Which icon do you associate with me?
2. Which icon is your favorite?
3. Which icon is your least favorite?
4. Which icon would you like to see me use more often?
5. One that you don't understand?
6. Can you make 2 of my icons converse?
7. When you comment, use your own favorite icon and tell me why you love it.
Uhh, well. I ended up skipping my painting class too yesterday. I hadn't realized that the sukiyaki stand only opens at 11, so I couldn't make it back to school in time, so I just said "fuck it."
My arm's still swollen and my right wrist feels segmented. Both of my elbows are swollen as well and they burn so much that they feel cold. I can't sleep on my left side until the muscle unswells so I'm stuck sleeping on my right... and then my right arm hurts from putting all my weight on it. My pain threshold ftl.
Damn it, I crave ghetto Asian food again... or hot dogs. I need to stop blowing all my money on food fjsdhfljgl;g ahhhhh.
oh my god I know daily horoscopes aren't to be trusted but these ones are so accurate it's downright frightening. |
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[Nov. 17th, 2009|08:18 am] |
I'm skipping class. I know, it's a bad idea. But at this point it won't change a thing. I failed to finish my umbrella and two hours will not be enough to finish it, seeing as I've already screwed up in the planning stage and now it's unbalanced, fragile and incredibly inconvenient. Either way, my grade is unsalvageable. I'm not saying it in a pessimistic way - I'm looking at the reality, cold and hard, and considering everything, and I simply cannot get around failing this class. Somehow, it doesn't bother me all that much anymore. I'm too exhausted to care; I've barely slept three hours since Saturday and I'm in pain, so yeah, I don't really... give a shit.
The same goes for my painting class. From the moment I failed to turn in the first "research" document, I've cemented my failure into the system. I'll attend today's class to finish my current project, at the very least, but I still haven't thought of anything for the final project. These projects just fail to inspire me, and when I'm inspired I can't come up with anything decent. I've said that millions of times before.
And now I'm getting weird cramps ahhhhffhgdfg this is part of why I should never get up before 10. Morning cramps ftl.
Edit: Have a meme.
Give me a character from any fandom you know that I know and I will tell you:
a. My favorite thing about that character.
b. My least favorite thing about that character.
c. One person I would ship them with in their own verse.
d. One crossover ship for them I think would be neat.
e. One crossover universe for them I think would be even neater.
f. Their ship from hell.
g. Their song.
h. The title of their biography or autobiography.
i. The last bad dream they had.
j. How they're gonna shuffle off the mortal coil, if they haven't already. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|10:57 pm] |
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... I can't believe I spent well over half an hour looking at 3D animations and descriptions of a hundred different sex positions instead of brainstorming for the project I have to start tomorrow morning.
fffffff |
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|09:52 am] |
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I remember when I would freak out and burst into tears as a kid whenever I had to get a shot. Shots were one of the things I hated the most in the entire world. Now I don't overreact - I just stay calm and take it. But I still hate shots. Especially now.
Why?
My fucking muscle is SWOLLEN and it HURTS and I DID NOT SLEEP LAST NIGHT for more than 15 minutes because of it.
The bump on my arm is pretty prominent. I told my mother about it yesterday and she said it was because the particular liquid in the vaccine is oily, so it takes more time to spread out and causes swelling or something. I haven't had any of the other side effects yet - just pain in my arm. Hell, I can't even lift it up to 90° because it pulls on the swollen muscle and it hurts like a bitch.
I really hope no one will bump into me or smack my arm today. If that happens, someone will die a horrible, horrible death. |
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[Nov. 15th, 2009|12:33 pm] |
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Just got the H1N1 vaccine. Waiting in line and after getting the shot (as we're all required to sit down for 15 minutes) took about an hour, whereas getting the actual shot took like... 10 seconds. Heh.
Well, now we're going to see 2012... it's probably going to suck. I'm really just in it for the popcorn. /shameless
I hope it won't be too long. As soon as I get back, I need to work on my project and read my book. |
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[Nov. 14th, 2009|04:10 pm] |
THEONETHING
I was going to type up a huge bitchpost but then the scanner downstairs started working... 
Edit: PARTNERINCRIMEMEME
IT'S MEME SEASON... |
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[Nov. 13th, 2009|08:47 pm] |
THE ♥OTP MEME
I'm home alone, hurting all over, starving, and I have a headache.
nghh. |
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[Nov. 13th, 2009|05:56 pm] |
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Well.
I didn't get anything done because I left stuff at home, technology sucks and some unknown force really loves making me burn my right hand on hot glue.
I missed my bus home by one minute and no one was home to come pick me up. I didn't want to wait 45 minutes for the next bus so I walked home. It took an hour - I pulled something in my leg, my jaw is frozen somehow and I can't even talk right, and since I haven't eaten all day my entire torso hurts. I knew I should have stopped at Valentine's along the way and gotten some hot dogs - unhealthy, I know, but at least I would have had something warm in my stomach.
I hurt all over and I'm tired. Normally I'd have burst into tears because, well, I'm fucked, but I'm too tired and my headache would only get worse.
And then I'm told that I'm going to get the H1N1 vaccine tomorrow (because people under the age of 20 get priority or something) and now I'm already dreading the side-effects. Dad got his shot earlier last week and he spent days feeling like shit. Ehhhh...
I'm just... gonna find something to eat and take some ibuprofen or something.
On the other hand, I love this song. |
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[Nov. 13th, 2009|10:37 am] |
I was going to use the entire day to work on my projects at school, but I think I'll just go in the afternoon. I just got up and I'm not in a very good mood because of last night (and nightmares). As long as I can turn in my first photoshop project and scan my two other images, I'll be fine with that - I can work on my last two pics at home. But I will really need to finish my umbrella today because I won't have any free time to do it on Monday since I have classes from noon to five nonstop and everyone knows how I hate getting up in the morning. I'm tempted to ask someone to come with me to help me finish it, but the chances of that happening are incredibly low.
AND THEN I HAVE TO READ AN ENTIRE BOOK BY MONDAY AND WRITE AN ANALYSIS ON MY UMBRELLA BY TUESDAY... ffffffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuu
Uhh the second part isn't showing for some reason so here it is.
"feels invisible" ... t-that about sums it up s-sob |
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[Nov. 12th, 2009|10:23 am] |
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Owww ow ow ow.
My brother punched me in the boob yesterday (I shit you not) and it still hurts. I think it may be bruising. And now I can't feel my right pinky either...?? Not to mention I'm dead tired.
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[Nov. 11th, 2009|06:34 pm] |
▪ Leave me a comment saying "hurf durf"
▪ I'll respond by asking you five questions so i can get to know you better.
▪ Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
▪ Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.
Questions from Rein--
1. What are your fetishes?
2. If Wild ARMS were a bigger fandom like Hetalia, KHR, and the likes-- would you love it as much as you do now?
3. Boobs or cocks?
4. Have you ever been groped?
5. What do you enjoy most about creating OCs?
1. Um. I'm actually very vanilla. Outside of... y'know, sexual situations (unsure)... I have a gigantic eye patch fetish.
2. H-hmm. Chances are that yes, I still would love it. I would just... avoid the fanbase a lot more than I already do.
3. UHHH. I'd rather not touch either but I'll say boobs. They're fun to draw. Dicks are weird.
4. Yes. By another girl. /stares at Vanessa
5. Oh, man. Uhm. It's probably the character design, although I rarely get an idea from a design at first - if that happens, the character usually ends up never getting any development at all. I need to start from an idea and then design and develop the character from there. Awkward wording is awkward. |
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[Nov. 10th, 2009|10:04 pm] |
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I LOVE DANCING WITH THE STARS |
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