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[Jan. 6th, 2010|03:19 pm] |
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-Got my second driving lesson. It was pretty much the same thing as last time and I didn't learn anything new - it was just practice. I don't think I've gotten any better yet. The instructor is extremely stressful and he keeps rushing me... like, he tells me to go slowly, but he says so like it's really urgent and he grabs the steering wheel and turns it really fast, so like...?? idk. I have a hard time with left turns, braking and accelerating correctly. I wear steel-toed boots so I have a really hard time feeling the pedals, and it doesn't help that the brakes on that car are pretty bad. I haven't scheduled another appointment yet because I don't know what my class schedule is like yet, so once I get it I'll call them back to tell them when I'm available.
-I finally got to schedule an appointment with the doctor. Calling failed, so I had to go directly to the front desk. It's at 10 AM on the 18th. The lady said I had to state a reason for the appointment - while I have a lot of things to discuss, I pretty much just summed it up to "mental health".
-Mom wanted to ask me about something - school-related, I think. I didn't understand what she meant when she asked but when I asked, she didn't respond. I went downstairs to ask her again... but she's watching Six Feet Under so she's totally zoned out from the rest of the world. /eyeroll
-I took a sleeping pill last night. It took me forever to get to sleep and I was woken up like three hours later. I managed to get back to sleep after that and I was really comfy in my bed... though, unsurprisingly, I had more fucked up dreams. Terrorists and evil government organizations and backstabbing and a badass black woman with a crazy hairdo, the same name as me and a swordcane. Also a talking rat. I've been up since a little before noon but I'm still pretty tired. Sleeping meds always seem to have a slowed down effect on me...
-fff my carpal tunnel has been CRAZY these past few days. My entire forearm, from the middle of my hand to my elbow, hurts like a bitch, but it's especially bad around my wrist and the bottom of my hand. I can't even start to draw because it hurts too much and I don't even keep my hand on the mouse when I'm on the computer.
-GODSIBB IS FUCKING SEXY.
-Also this amv blows my mind.
-I should have asked for a second snack wrap. sob, why so delicious... /starves
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[Jan. 5th, 2010|11:29 pm] |
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Leave a ONE WORD comment that you think best describes me. It can only be one word. No more than one word. Then copy & paste this post to your own journal so I can leave a word about you. |
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[Jan. 5th, 2010|04:41 pm] |
Karaoke Voice Post Meme: Leave a comment with a song (preferably one that I know) of any language that you want to hear me sing. I will sing snippets from the first 10 (or however many) songs named in a voice post. If you are not sure whether I know the song or not, attach an MP3.
Yeah I'm that bored. I still have to do one of the two songs that was requested last time but I suck at singing May'n. sob |
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[Jan. 5th, 2010|04:16 pm] |
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( Act 4-9 )
lmfao I got my ass kicked. I'll try this again later... |
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[Jan. 4th, 2010|01:44 pm] |
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Amazingly enough, I managed to sleep well last night, even though I didn't get to sleep until at least 4 AM and I was dreaming about rather horrible things. (Being dragged to Tokyo to cosplay as a Storm Trooper, us getting a pet Senegal whose head was melded to the top of its cage and learning that Jessie was being left for dead in an abandoned house that was about to sink, me being with a group of people inside a weird building that was suddenly under attack by some evil organization's attack squad - in which a few people and I suddenly took the badass route and started sneakily disarming and incapacitating some of the attackers until it turned out to be, no matter how hard we tried, a Bad End for us because the last guy that came in was being a fucking God Moder and didn't take any damage from bullets at all...?)
... Ahem.
Dad told me yesterday he'd wake me up earlier so I could have the chance to call the clinic for an appointment. Ideally, one would have to call at about 10 or 11 AM. He never woke me up. I just got up and it's past 1:40 PM, which is way too late for appointment calls.
ಠ_ಠ
Eh.
Things to do:
-Eat
-Shower
-Make the bed... /sigh
-Work on the game script
-Try to... start working on those apps orz
-Exercise a bit
Why do I get the feeling that someone's really pissed off at me? |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2010|10:03 pm] |
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I went to see Sherlock Holmes with my dad. We missed like the first ten minutes or so because there was a HORDE of people (not just a line) at the entrance waiting to get their tickets. It was pretty good! Sure could have used some subtitles though because LOL BRITISH ACCENTS. But yeah. It's a fun movie.
I'm feeling better now. I could really use some more... I dunno, out-time. It makes the whole "lol bad health" issue easier to bear. I have things I'd like to do. Dad and I talked about going to a public pool and I suggested to mom about going ice skating. We haven't skated in, what, three years? Maybe more? I never did get to put my new skates to use. Hopefully she'll have a day off soon and it won't be too cold so we can go to Rideau and skate.
I'm going to try to take better care of my health, little by little. I've already started doing push-ups against the wall. I'm going to wait until my cold and, ahem, my period are gone before I do other things. Crunches, standing squats, etc. Food is a problem, though. I wish I could find a way to fight off my pickiness and eat until I'm full. I keep being told that I've lost weight and that I'm really skinny and honestly, I hate it. I feel angular and bony and it's generally uncomfortable.
Yep.
/eats skittles and drinks powerade...
「 the RPG class meme 」
HONESTY MEME |
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[Jan. 1st, 2010|07:23 pm] |
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I REMIND YOU OF ________
Apparently the world does not want me to try pho. |
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[Jan. 1st, 2010|01:45 pm] |
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Happy new yeaaaarrrs bitches
I was chilling with my dad after midnight and looking at stuff on Google Earth until I started having difficulty breathing. He took my pulse and it was at 120/minute. He later whipped out a digital blood pressure monitor (I had no idea we even had that) and my pulse was at 98 and it turns out my blood pressure is low. And then I didn't sleep at all last night because of chest discomfort and an awfully cold-induced sore throat and... idk, I was kinda daydreaming or something. It was like I was half-conscious and I kept turning over in my bed. I got up at like 7 to take some medicine and drink water and went back to bed. I DID fall asleep then... although I had some fucked up dreams that I'd really rather not remember, OTL.
What now... hmm. I'll continue writing my game script, I guess. Tomorrow Jean-Michel and I are going to cook a huge omelet and a chiffon cake. And I also really wanna do color reference sheets for my characters... hmmmmmmmmmm.
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[Dec. 31st, 2009|07:50 pm] |
Okay, well. I deleted my journal for a few hours. I was fucking raging at myself earlier for multiple reasons and I deleted my journal in an attempt to distance myself from lj and cool down, so that I wouldn't be tempted to continue making dipshit posts.
I wanted to keep it up until midnight, but, uh... something good happened! lmao it's really nothing (except that I BEAT RAGU O RAGULA IN WAXF YEAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!) but it got me really excited and pumped and it just instantly blew my bad mood away. It's surprising on something so... insignificant? can shift my mood 180°.
That said, I apologize for the... well, fucked up-ness from the past few hours. It was personal, really. But I'm better now, and I'm determined to keep this good mood up to January 1st.
Not gonna lie, I'm still paranoid as all fuck, but for now I'm just going to try to take it easy. Next time I need to vent, I'll write it down on paper and tear it up or something. I don't need to bother people with my problems so I'll just... yeah. lmao I can't even think of anything coherent because I'm still shaking from the excitement of beating this boss skaj;fldg
That said, I apologize for being an annoying, whiny prick all year. 2010 is going to be better.
Edit: ( 2009 meme, idk ) |
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[Dec. 29th, 2009|12:31 am] |
Since it's past midnight here...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY REIN!!  
Edit: ~I'LL FACE MYSELF~ |
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[Dec. 28th, 2009|07:16 pm] |
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-WA ACF progress: Just started Ka Dingel. Apparently I'm missing like two Migrant Seals so I'll look for them before I continue. I need Jack's guitar before I can finish Perpetual Engine... Adlehyde's almost completely rebuilt, and the Master League at Devil's Playground kicks my ass in two turns because those little shits like to jump on me and blow up before I can even do anything. I beat Barbados, now I need to rebuild the Sweet Candy so I can take down Leviathan... Got Jane and Emma in my party, now I just need to find Great Booster for Emma and get that item from Malduke to get Zed into my party even though I'm never gonna use him. I'm seriously at 99% map completion. I'm gonna have to do the Puzzle Boxes too, and Killing Stone Cave, and go back to Arctica Castle. Uhh... oh, there's De Le Metalica too. And I need to find some more Guardians... I'm missing Zeldukes and Equitess, at least. So yeah. I've done a lot already, with those things aside, and I'm still only at about 26 hours of gameplay (including idling and trying to remember dungeon puzzles). As awkward (and sometimes downright awful) as the translation can be, I have to say that I fucking love this game. Fun tidbit: the robes Zeikfried and other random demons wear at some points during the game were reused for some NPCs during cutscenes in WAXF.
-My userpics expired today. I wanted to finish setting up my paypal account and renew them yesterday, but... yeah, that didn't happen. I don't know when I'll even be able to get ahold of mom long enough for us to get the numbers I'm missing because BMO sucks. Lo and behold, LJ had to deactivate like all of my favorite icons. Yayyy.
-I don't know why my brother is suddenly so obsessed with claiming that I spend 30 minutes in the shower just to masturbate. He even goes and tells my entire family about it. Um... dude, why? No amount of telling the truth will get him to shut up. It's not even the part about picking on me that pisses me off, it's the part that he even dares to bring up the idea of his little sister masturbating. It's seriously creeping me the fuck out.
-Kingdom Hearts discussion is once again taking over the internet and it's making me rather uncomfortable because I'm probably the only person who has zero interest in it. This is all your fault, Éric.
-As a random note, so far I've gotten two Christmas cards in the mail, ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) xxkamuixx's and kmmasy's. I think that's double of what I've gotten last year.
-That said, let me know when you get my card!
-From the sound of it, I'm going to spend New Years home alone. /unsurprised
-I have a bite wound inside my cheek and it's pissing me the hell off.
-My mother made me take two sleeping pills last night and they actually worked. I had been prescribed sleeping pills several times before and they never worked. This is the first time this has ever happened.
-IIIII don't know. |
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[Dec. 27th, 2009|10:07 pm] |
So... Avatar was pretty good.
... Nothing more to say than that, really. |
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